My Kind of Honest Poem

She is a child at heart with and old soul

She has an appetite for adventure.

She breathes peace and laughs joy

Sweet is the fragrance that follows her

She battles fear daily, but the devil on her shoulder is no one other than herself And those shoulders get tired from carrying excessive loads brought on by her arms of empathy...

Lonely from the walls she places herself in but within the walls lives a heart marinated in passion and a soul that breathes fire. Because when she loves, she loves with the richest flavor and deepest flame one soul can handle. But she hasn’t allowed herself to fully love in a very long time

She has a hard time talking about herself to others and doesn’t like being in the spotlight alone.. you see this was supposed to be my Honest poem but I started writing it in 3^rd person for that very reason. So I guess that makes this my kind of honest poem….

Born February 11^th 1990, and I am the “she”who daily battles fear. The fear of being mediocre vs. fear of leaving my comfort zone to be my greatest. 

I sometimes struggle with saying no and would be lost without the GPS in my phone

Which is ironic because If I were to point out to you my current location on the roadmap to my life I would be spinning in circles trying to decide which path I’m supposed to trek.

I have come to appreciate the simple things in life like hot showers, sleep, chapstick, H2O, sincere hugs,  uncontrollable laughter, an honest kiss and moments without technology.

If you asked me have I ever seen God? I would tell you yes.. In children, I see heaven in their eyes and life in their smiles. The world hasn’t tainted and stripped them of innocence yet

I have a sweet tooth … a big one.

My friends find my love for slow jams humerous 

And I think music is the heartbeat of our world, the pulse of human creativity.. In other words, we’d be "dead" without it.

I am fascinated by anatomy and love learning about the human body.

Exercise, is my coping mechanism. It keeps me sain.

I get random urges to stand on my hands instead of my feet and I often describe with sound effects instead of words

If I could be on a reality TV show It would be "So You Think You Can Dance" or "America Ninja Warrior"

But you would think I am trying out for the Voice when I’m alone in the car or shower

I love super spicy food, like runny nose status.

When people ask me how tall I am I still say, "Almost 5’2” " in hopes that someday I will be even though I know I stopped growing 9 years ago

For some reason I love defense in any sport, I guess I love challenging the play makers.

I would consider myself wealthy if relationships were currency

And I am flawed.. but try hard to cover it up.

I live life pretty fearless until it comes to my heart.

My face would be next to the hopeless romantic entry in the encyclopedia. But 5 year old wedding planner was never me, the only part of my wedding I’ve ever dreamt about is the groom. And I can’t lie, I’ve dreamt about him a lot

Sometimes I feel like I need a translator to understand my emotions. I think it’s because I grew up hiding my them

Lose ignorance not innocence is the motto I’ve tried to live by, but this constantly becomes harder

If you were to rob me I’d ask leave me one thing, my faith. God is the 1 constant I know I can always count on. He has given me overflowing Joy and Love for this life I live. 

But If God were to write me a letter right now it would probably say “What are you waiting for?” because I am a dreamer with big dreams but I get scared to pull them out of the clouds.. so I tend to leave them there.

 

I feel like a bird trapped in a cage not fully able to spread my wings and fly, deep down I think we all feel that way. Maybe because we’re all angels on earth where wings don't work. 

Hi, My name is Mandy Parker and I am 24 years old.

I love a good pair of shoes and still don't know how to act when talking to someone I find attractive

I'm a sucker for kind eyes, a good smile and someone who makes me laugh

I think it's easier to write my thoughts than speak them & I'm a motivational quote fiend

I'm easy to please, especially if boba is involved 

You can find me trying to understand the directions on my GPS for life 

Fingerprints

My conclusion is this.. that every person you encounter in life leaves a finger print on your heart.

Acquaintances, co workers, family, friends, lovers. Some are faint, but some leave deep imprints. Not determined by length of relationship but force of impact.

Engraved signatures on our soul, each fingerprint a passageway to the memories, emotions, and lessons that make up who we are

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